Yes I know it's been almost a month since my last post but frankly, I haven't had much new to share. I think it's rather dull to post on the same things every day or even weekly. You are all already aware of the struggles regarding sleep, routine and my own personal identity crisis. BUT...
I have something new to share. Christopher is developing quite the little personality. He loves to 'talk' now and is becoming somewhat attached to certain toys. I wanted to load a video but the file is too big...! If you want to see it, email me and I'll forward the zip file to you.
Another development is that I am starting to enjoy my time with the little guy. I had a feeling that once he became a little more interactive and responsive that this would happen. It also helps that we are all getting more sleep the past few weeks...this is thanks to Michael. Daddy is now the king of getting Christopher down at night for more than 2 or 3 hours in a row. In speaking with other new moms I am quite fortunate that Michael helps out as much as he does. Some of the women that I've met are doing literally everything at home & taking care of their infants on their own. OMG, I feel for them!
Enjoy!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Sleep
As you all know I have been obsessed with sleep or rather the unpredictable nature of Christopher's sleep patterns. This has lead me to have an unpredictable sleep pattern, more like a non-existent sleep pattern as on no sleep.
I am happy to report that for now it seems that we have established a regular bedtime for the little guy! YEAH! WOOT, WOOT! Tonight marks the 3rd night in a row that we begin the bedtime routine around 7:15pm to 7:30pm and he is sound asleep by 8:00pm, maybe 8:30pm & get this - he has been sleeping for up to 6 hours in a row!...did I mention that he is also now sleeping in his very own bedroom? Yes, we made the leap two nights ago & let me tell you, it's made a world of difference for me. No more listening to his nightly grunts & snoring, wondering "is he awake, do I need to feed him?" This is important in that half the time, I did not need to feed him & only succeeded in waking him up!
So, how was this momentous feat accomplished? Routine, Routine, Routine & determination & patience. But really it's the consistency that helps set him up for sleep. We just need to stay vigilant over the next period of time to ensure that the behaviour is really set, if we mess up even one or two nights and all could be lost. Next step...daytime naps!
The benefit of this newly developed sleep pattern? Michael & I get to spend time doing something other than taking care of Christopher. Some may find that a callous statement but the truth is that one cannot be happy and balanced if all one does is tend to baby's needs. We need time for ourselves & time together, even if all that is is sitting quietly on the sofa in the same room together. Tonight however, I am off to bed early...I want to enjoy my potential sleep of 6 hours back to back!
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Family
Christopher and I have just returned from a visit to Toronto. We were there to visit with Michael's family...his sisters and their fabulous spouses and kid's as well as his parents.Let me just say this, Michael has a really great family. I think that I am one of the few people who will openly and enthusiastically say that I love my in-laws.
Hilde, now known as "Oma" deserves saint status - She has taught me more about being patient with the little guy than I ever thought possible. Oma has the "magic" touch when it comes to babies. Like my father (grandpa), no matter what was going on with Christopher she simply cuddled, coo'd and rocked him until the gas pain passed or he decided that he'd said his piece and was done for the time being.
Michael has twin sisters - Mary & Susie. They both have 2 children, much older than Christopher. They are both wonderful with children; patient, supportive, understanding and I think most importantly, non-judgmental...just very even keeled or least this is the energy that I see when I'm with them.
I can only hope that I grow into this role in a similar fashion. I want to be patient and even keeled and supportive and non-judgemental and loving in a way that allows my son to become a whole person.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Time Passes Quickly
It's been a number of days since I lasted posted and what can I say? Time moves in two dimensions when you have a 7 week old to care for.
The first dimension is the "oh my god will this day never end?" dimension. It's generally filled with frustration and confusion for both you and your newborn. Often times this type of day is organized around bouts of inconsolable crying (both you & your child), gas...especially the little guy but potentially you too and praying for snippets of peace and sleep.
The second dimension is the " geez, where did the day go?" dimension. This is my favorite. It's got all sorts of great stuff to distract both you and the babe. Quiet moments of smiles, even a giggle, getting ready to go out, going out...coming home, taking baths (the dude that is not me! the day does not have enough hours for that!) and lastly, enjoying a meal with the hubby. Maybe if you're really lucky, you get a few minutes all to yourself!
If I discover a third time dimension I'll be sure to let you know about it!
The first dimension is the "oh my god will this day never end?" dimension. It's generally filled with frustration and confusion for both you and your newborn. Often times this type of day is organized around bouts of inconsolable crying (both you & your child), gas...especially the little guy but potentially you too and praying for snippets of peace and sleep.
The second dimension is the " geez, where did the day go?" dimension. This is my favorite. It's got all sorts of great stuff to distract both you and the babe. Quiet moments of smiles, even a giggle, getting ready to go out, going out...coming home, taking baths (the dude that is not me! the day does not have enough hours for that!) and lastly, enjoying a meal with the hubby. Maybe if you're really lucky, you get a few minutes all to yourself!
If I discover a third time dimension I'll be sure to let you know about it!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Routine Returns to Parker Street
Ahh...I love routines.
They make me feel as though something is being accomplished. Predictability is very reassuring for many of us. No wonder I ended up in a career that relies on repeated operational routines!
Christopher has finally fallen into some semblance of a daily routine. Here it is...
~ 4:30am or so it's a big feed! He loves his boobie at this time of morning, sadly this is the time of morning when mommy is crankiest! He falls back asleep by about 5:00am or maybe 5:15am.
~ 7:00am it's time to get up! more boobie and now Christopher is AWAKE until at least 10:00am...often until 11:00am. He is a morning person just like his mommie!
~ Most days he now naps from between 10:00am and 11:00am until 1:00pm or sometimes even 2:00pm. If he is in the stroller and we're out and about, he sleeps soundly and I can get a few things done - think laundry, lunch, general tiding up or quick errands out and about.
~ 2:00pm at the latest and it's time for more boobie! This feed is often quite big! And now he is generally awake until 6:00pm. He does catch a few little cat-naps of 20 mins or so but frankly, he doesn't like to take this nap & if he does, wow is he ever CRANKY when he wakes up...just in time for daddy to come home and think that his son never does anything other than cry!
~ Between 6:00pm and 7:00pm Christopher begins his "night-time" routine. A little more boobie and then he sleeps until 9:30pm or even 10:00pm if we're lucky.
~ The next waking is at about 11:30pm or 12:00am and it's usually pretty short, more like a little snack on the boob & usually right back to sleep!
~ and before you know it, it's 4:30am and we start it all over again!
So there it is. We're still eagerly awaiting the "sleep through the night" bit where Christopher will sleep for a whole 5 or 6 hours straight. If we're lucky, this will happen over the next 2 or 3 weeks. Keep in mind, he is now between 5 and 6 weeks old! Six weeks is the magic age where his biological systems will become more like ours...this means that he'll stop confusing day with night and will be physiologically capable of sleeping longer without feeding.
Did I mention that my son is BIG! He is already weighing at 12lbs, this is 90th percentile! More on that in my next post!
They make me feel as though something is being accomplished. Predictability is very reassuring for many of us. No wonder I ended up in a career that relies on repeated operational routines!
Christopher has finally fallen into some semblance of a daily routine. Here it is...
~ 4:30am or so it's a big feed! He loves his boobie at this time of morning, sadly this is the time of morning when mommy is crankiest! He falls back asleep by about 5:00am or maybe 5:15am.
~ 7:00am it's time to get up! more boobie and now Christopher is AWAKE until at least 10:00am...often until 11:00am. He is a morning person just like his mommie!
~ Most days he now naps from between 10:00am and 11:00am until 1:00pm or sometimes even 2:00pm. If he is in the stroller and we're out and about, he sleeps soundly and I can get a few things done - think laundry, lunch, general tiding up or quick errands out and about.
~ 2:00pm at the latest and it's time for more boobie! This feed is often quite big! And now he is generally awake until 6:00pm. He does catch a few little cat-naps of 20 mins or so but frankly, he doesn't like to take this nap & if he does, wow is he ever CRANKY when he wakes up...just in time for daddy to come home and think that his son never does anything other than cry!
~ Between 6:00pm and 7:00pm Christopher begins his "night-time" routine. A little more boobie and then he sleeps until 9:30pm or even 10:00pm if we're lucky.
~ The next waking is at about 11:30pm or 12:00am and it's usually pretty short, more like a little snack on the boob & usually right back to sleep!
~ and before you know it, it's 4:30am and we start it all over again!
So there it is. We're still eagerly awaiting the "sleep through the night" bit where Christopher will sleep for a whole 5 or 6 hours straight. If we're lucky, this will happen over the next 2 or 3 weeks. Keep in mind, he is now between 5 and 6 weeks old! Six weeks is the magic age where his biological systems will become more like ours...this means that he'll stop confusing day with night and will be physiologically capable of sleeping longer without feeding.
Did I mention that my son is BIG! He is already weighing at 12lbs, this is 90th percentile! More on that in my next post!
Thursday, March 4, 2010
You Should Just Enjoy It
The most common comment that I get these days from various sources is that I should 'just enjoy this time with my baby'.Hmmm...Yes I should at least try to enjoy these early weeks with the little guy. I know that these days are slipping by quickly & that before I know it Christopher will be going off to preschool and these special days will be lost forever.
The deal though is that these 'special' days & weeks are coloured by a complete lack of sleep, utter exhaustion actually. It's this exhaustion that makes it very difficult to enjoy much of anything, let alone all the moments I have with Christopher. For a day or two I was feeling guilty about this lack of enjoyment for motherhood. Not anymore. I now understand that my feelings of frustration are completely normal, this is not a reflection of my ability or my dedication to being a great mom.
The days after Christopher (and thus me) sleeps well I LOVE being with him. Who wouldn't love looking into his beautiful, smiling face! On that note, Christopher is starting to develop a few little tricks. He can hold his head up for short periods of time, when he is on his tummy he can lift his head up & do little, tiny push-ups...too cute! And blissfully, Christopher is starting to smile for the sake of smiling rather than due to passing gas! Not to mention that last night he slept for 3 hours at a time! This is real progress!
Fingers crossed that we continue to progress in the sleep department! I am very much looking forward to days when Christopher is a little more interactive & responsive to the various things around him...I am much better when the conversation is not just one sided!
The deal though is that these 'special' days & weeks are coloured by a complete lack of sleep, utter exhaustion actually. It's this exhaustion that makes it very difficult to enjoy much of anything, let alone all the moments I have with Christopher. For a day or two I was feeling guilty about this lack of enjoyment for motherhood. Not anymore. I now understand that my feelings of frustration are completely normal, this is not a reflection of my ability or my dedication to being a great mom.
The days after Christopher (and thus me) sleeps well I LOVE being with him. Who wouldn't love looking into his beautiful, smiling face! On that note, Christopher is starting to develop a few little tricks. He can hold his head up for short periods of time, when he is on his tummy he can lift his head up & do little, tiny push-ups...too cute! And blissfully, Christopher is starting to smile for the sake of smiling rather than due to passing gas! Not to mention that last night he slept for 3 hours at a time! This is real progress!
Fingers crossed that we continue to progress in the sleep department! I am very much looking forward to days when Christopher is a little more interactive & responsive to the various things around him...I am much better when the conversation is not just one sided!
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Dinner Out...
I now realize all of the little things that I used to take for granted...in no particular order:
1. Dinner out - at friends or a restaurant. We used to go to restaurants a lot. I look forward to all of the money we'll save!
2. A nice big glass of wine. A small glass of scotch or maybe a Manhattan.
3. Leisurely mornings with the news, a cup of coffee & the duvet pulled up high.
4. Last minute plans, for anything.
5. Quiet time with Michael. Snuggling in bed for hours.
6. Going to see a movie.
7. My breasts belonging to me.
8. Time to procrastinate all those little projects.
9. Quiet time to myself.
10. Reading anything not related to babies.
Sure, there are likely many more but these are top of mind today.
I know that as Christopher grows and starts to develop/show his personality that I will discover new things that will bring great pleasure & will fall into the "taken for granted" category. I look forward to it and to sharing that list with you too!
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